I mean yeah, maybe in a perfect world every day would be a good one.
But this isn’t a perfect world. I am not a perfect person. And I’m allowed to have bad days.
It’s sort of been my greatest fear, actually; having a bad day.
Because somehow in my mind I had come up with this idea that a bad day would lead to a bad week which would lead to a bad month and so on and so on, until I had nothing but a bad life left behind.
But a bad day can just be a bad day.
And as cheesy as it sounds, we need those bad days. We need them to reorient ourselves; to reevaluate. And we need them to remind us just how good the good days are.
This especially resonates with me because I had almost forgotten how bad a bad day could feel.
As I mentioned in this post, I’ve struggled with my mental health for a while. But for quite some time now, I’ve been able to manage everything pretty well.
Until I couldn’t anymore.
I couldn’t work; I couldn’t enjoy myself; some days, I couldn’t even get out of bed.
So now that I’m back to recovering, I think back to all the times I could have let myself have just one bad day. Instead, I held everything in and pretended everything was okay.
Which, in the end, started to make my worst nightmare a reality: I had an entire bad month.
Instead of these small bad days being sprinkled throughout my okay days and my good days and my great days, they rained down on my all at once. And that hurt. More than anything.
I can’t change the past. I can’t change how I’ve reacted to things that have already happened and I can’t go back and fix what I think I did wrong.
But I can work on my present, which will in turn shape my future.
So it’s okay to have a bad day. Or 2, or 3.
But I know that after that bad day, I’ll have a good one. Maybe even a great one. And it will feel even better than before.
If you’re having a bad day, remind yourself that it’s okay.
If you’re trying to avoid your bad days, just let them in.
I am not a professional, though, so if you need to seek out help I recommend you take a look at these resources.
So let’s all have a bad day. Because then we can enjoy the great ones that much more.